Jade Benning's Final Call

0:00On February 25th, 2023, my best friend, Jay Benning, was saying that she was gonna plan a date night for her and Blaze, that she was gonna make him dinner. What did she tell you about Laze Taylor? She told me that he was different from her typical type, quiet, a little bit more reserved. He seemed to be very sweet, very kind-hearted, and she just made it seem like he was like this Prince Charming kind of guy. Star athlete, scholar, recruiting for the Tennessee Titans, so he had a good job. I knew she had this date night, but I was hungry. And I called her and I was like, hey, is Blaze there? And she's like, yeah. And I was like, okay, well, I hope he's not mad, but I'm just going to come by and get some food, I promise I'll be quick, and leave. And she's like giggling.

1:05She's like, OK, like, all right. I probably stayed for maybe 15, 30 minutes. She was smiling and happy. And then maybe like an hour later is when I got the phone call from Jade. It was almost like a butt dial. That's kind of how it felt to me. And I immediately hear like, what did you do? What did you put in my drink? I knew my drink tasted funny. She's asking him to empty his pocket. She was like, Blaise, like you're scaring me. She's saying she's about to pass out. At this point, I'm scared. I don't really understand what's going on. So I'm on the friend's house, and I think she's talking about what's a great action. So we're getting cookies and painting and just making sure we're feeling good.

2:11And we're going back to the room to check on her. Then I get there, and she is already in the back of the ambulance. And I'm asking Blades, like, what did you do like what happened he's like I didn't do anything I didn't do anything my son blaze Taylor he was the only person that called 9-1-1 there's no reason that he would have any reason to want to hurt her. My best friend called me for a reason, and I'm going to make sure we figure out what happened. Natalie Morales reports, Jade Benning's final call. On the night of February 25th, 2023, outside Vanderbilt Medical Center in Nashville, Blaze Taylor was answering police questions about how a date turned into a medical emergency. Authorities wanted to know what happened to 24-year-old Jade Benning,

3:30who had been rushed to the hospital, arriving unresponsive. She started not to feel well. Jade Benning started that night with a hope of strengthening her relationship with Blaze Taylor, then a 26-year-old assistant football scout for the Tennessee Titans. Jade, a professional chef, was planning a special night at her apartment, cooking dinner to be followed by painting pictures. But as the evening progressed, just minutes after taking these selfies, Jade fell ill. Blaze said she was spitting up and shaking. Unsure what to do, he first called his father. Being in sports and things, a lot of times, you know, they would go to their dad. Evie Taylor, Blaze's mother, said their children would often contact their father, a college football coach, with medical questions.

4:20He would be on the field, like if somebody got hurt, he would be the first one there. Blaze's call with his dad lasted 30 seconds. He told his son to immediately call 911, which Blaze did. I don't know what's happening. EMT responders found Jade lying face down on her bed with no pulse. She was taken by ambulance to the hospital. By then, Jade's best friend, Nijaya Jackson, had returned to Jade's apartment, only to learn Jade was unresponsive. She has to be okay. I just saw her an hour ago. Just an hour earlier, Jade was her usual lively self. She was known, says her family and friends, for being spirited, traits on display in cheerleading. She was captain of the squad at her high school in Little Rock, Arkansas,

5:14and cheered in competitions. She was very much a bridge builder. Dennis Browning, Jade's dad, says she has always been about bringing people together, even her own parents, after her mom, Bridget Benning-Burks, and her dad divorced. She was always putting out the fire. Let's cook. She moved from Little Rock to Nashville to pursue her career and her dream of owning a restaurant. She was close to doing it. When did you start to hear the name Blaze Taylor? It wasn't long after she moved there, she told me that she had met this person. And my husband's big into sports, so he knew exactly who he was. Blaze Taylor was well known to people in Arkansas who followed college football. A former standout defensive back and top student who had earned a scholarship to Arkansas State University.

6:07You know, when he got to college, he got his bachelor's and his master's in business in three and a half years while playing football and starting his own nonprofit. Blaze was all about helping people, not hurting them, says his family. He and his sister, Star, while students at Arkansas State, started a foundation providing educational opportunities for children. He's always been really passionate about community service and giving back. After college, Blaze went on to an assistant coaching job at Duke. Blaze then moved to Nashville for that scouting job with the Tennessee Titans, where he was working when he met Jade. He mentioned her name once, maybe going on a date or something, and he just said that she was a

6:51chef and that's all I knew about her. Jade and Blaze's relationship had been a casual one, with each seeing other people. Then in November 2022, about three months into dating, Jade called her mom with surprising news. She said, hold on, I got to send you a picture to look at. And so she texted a picture and it was a pregnancy test, positive. And she goes, you're going to be a grandpa. And that's when I asked her, I said, well, who's your father? She told her parents it was Blaze. Jade learned she was having a girl and chose the name Ivy for the baby. By the time of that date night, Jade was nearly six months pregnant. Those paintings Jade planned for that night were meant for Ivy's room. Jade's creation included the words love and hope.

7:45But hope turned to horror when Nijaya received that call from Jade, where she says Jade was accusing Blaze of putting something into her drink. It just sounded like something I'd never heard before. She just sounded scared. The call lasted a little more than six minutes. Nijaya says Jade's voice faded at the end, and then the call was disconnected. As Nijaya raced to Jade's apartment to figure out what was going on, she called Bridget. To have this responsibility to tell my best friend's mom that something is wrong. Having to explain to her mom, police, the doctors, all these things that only I heard. And needing them to believe me because I knew that my friend needed help. Nijaya and Blaze separately followed the ambulance to the hospital.

8:46Once there, Nijaya repeated what she heard on that call from Jade to anyone who would listen, including law enforcement and medical staff. Meanwhile, Bridget traveled all night to Nashville to be with her daughter. Bridget says she kept calling Jade's phone. Finally, after probably the third time of calling, he answered. I was like, what have you done to my child? San Jose's airport is a simple airport to fly through, which is great if you're a parent, because there's one thing you don't want to hear your kids say. I don't want to walk anymore. I'm bored. I'm hungry again. Mom. And my legs are so tired. I miss my toys. Why aren't we here yet? This stinks. We have a special area called the Zoom Zone for kids,

9:38and our terminals are the perfect size for little ones. So you'll never hear their complaints again. San Jose Mineta International Airport. Fly simple, fly SJC. Visit flysjc.com. Bridget knew her daughter, Jade Benning, was in critical condition. But when she arrived at Vanderbilt University Medical Center, she realized just how dire the situation had become. They told me that she had gone approximately 45 minutes without oxygen. I knew. Jade was brain dead. She was hooked up to life support, put in ICU, and any hope of even communicating with her daughter to learn what happened was gone. And what about the baby? What were the doctors saying? Well, the baby at this time was 24 weeks. And if Jade went

10:47an extended time without oxygen, the baby went the same. And a baby at 24 weeks wouldn't have a chance. Amid their sorrow, Jade's family and friends were searching for answers as to how a healthy 24-year-old could now be in this state. Still, there was that phone call Jade made where Nigea said she heard Jade accuse Blaze of putting something in her drink. Is Blaze at the hospital too with you? Are you seeing him? No, actually, when they moved her to ICU, he was told that he needed to leave. And at that time, they placed her under an alias name for her protection. The only people that had access to her were her parents. Police had spoken to Blaze, who cooperated several times earlier that night at the hospital.

11:53Aside from what Nigea said she heard on that call, which was not recorded, there was no proof that Blaise harmed Jade. And it was Blaise, remember, who had contacted 911. Blaise's parents were concerned and traveled from Texas to Nashville to be with them. And of course, you know, worried about her and, you know, she's pregnant and is she going to be okay? Is the baby going to be okay? In the days that followed, Blaze and his family say they were cut off from receiving updates about Jade's condition. Jade's family says they also were not receiving information they wanted from police about next steps into the investigation. As a parent, you know, you want answers like right now, you know, what happened? What are you going

12:37to do? They thought authorities weren't moving fast enough. It wasn't just the phone call their daughter had made. There were also conversations months earlier where Jade had told them Blaze was unhappy at the prospect of becoming a dad. She told me that he didn't want a happy thing to do with the baby. Nijaya and others say that Blaze at one point even suggested to Jade she terminate the pregnancy. Kind of gave her her ultimatum on either getting an abortion or you're risking this being over between you and i jade made it clear to blaze she wanted the baby and was fine to do it without him for a while their relationship cooled off jade's family though was more than ready to help out. We was very excited.

13:25Lynn Burks, Jade's stepdad, had been looking forward to having a grandchild, no matter the circumstance. If he didn't want anything to do with it, we was okay with that. We wasn't gonna ask for one thing from him. Her family says Jade told them to keep the pregnancy quiet per Blaze's instructions. But Evie Taylor says Blaze did tell people, including his family, in December 2022. He just told us that she was pregnant, so I think it was a difficult conversation because obviously they had a casual relationship. Evie said they discussed a paternity test to be performed after the baby was born to confirm that Blaze was the father. Still, his family was supportive. My dad immediately grabbed all of our hands and we just prayed for Jade, for Blaze, for the child. Then on New Year's

14:21Eve 2022, Blaze reached out to Jade. They started dating again. Now with Jade on life support, her family and Nigea questioned Blaze's motives for reconnecting back then, wondering if he had been planning something nefarious. Despite expressing their concerns about Blaze to police, Jade's apartment had yet to be sealed off as a potential crime scene. I was just like, I know what I heard and something needs to be done. Like, we need to go to her apartment. So just one day after Jade was admitted to the hospital, Nigea and three friends decided to investigate on their own. They went to Jade's apartment and recorded this video. I got some gloves from the hospital and I told everybody to put them on.

15:11And we went into the apartment and we started recording upon entry. Did you worry at all that I could be hindering the police investigation? I might be contaminating the scene? Honestly, at that time, no. When the group entered Jade's bedroom, Nijaya said she noticed something out of place. I see that the camera is in the corner, and the camera was never there. Nijaya said she had seen the Blink security camera in the kitchen when she left the apartment earlier the night Jade became ill. She wondered if Blaze moved the camera so it would not record him putting something in Jade's drink. So I moved the camera back to the kitchen. I wanted it back where it was in case he came back for whatever reason. While in the apartment, they noticed vomit on Jade's comforter. Thinking it

16:03might be important, they put it in a garbage bag to bring to Bridget. The next day, police did secure the scene and did their own search, collecting drinks and other items to be tested. Bridget also gave police the comforter. At the hospital, now two days after being admitted, results from Jade's lab work were coming back. That's when the positive results came back in our blood and in our urine. Positive results for cocaine. Cocaine, something doctors said might explain Jade's condition. Was cocaine ever something that she had tried as far as you knew? Never. Never. Jade's condition. Was cocaine ever something that she had tried as far as you knew? No, never. Never. Jade's parents and friends knew she sometimes

16:49used marijuana and would drink, but they say once Jade learned she was pregnant, that stopped. For days, Jade had been kept on life support. Now the family had a heartbreaking decision to make, when to remove the equipment. We talked, and with it being so close to her birthday, we were like, our wishes are to wait until her birthday. On March 6, 2023, on what would have been Jade's 25th birthday, life support was stopped. When she died, a part of me did too. Five months later, Jade's autopsy was completed, finding she died from acute cocaine toxicity, with the cocaine having been ingested. While cocaine had been identified in her system in the hospital, the levels revealed in the autopsy were extraordinarily high.

17:48And according to the medical examiner, rarely seen. More than seven times what is typically found in fatal cocaine overdoses. Which is like off the chart. What did that tell you, Bridget, in that moment? That he did something. He didn't want the baby. So he ultimately put something in her drink that took her life. The manner of death, though, was listed as could not be determined, not as homicide. There was no evidence Blaze bought any drugs, and no drugs were found in the drinks police took from Jade's apartment. The one place cocaine was identified was in the vomit stain on that comforter. Still, Jade's family and friends were convinced Blaze poisoned Jade, putting cocaine into her drink.

18:42I think he had an image he wanted to uphold, you know, being this picture perfect person. I guess he felt like, you know, having a child would somehow tarnish that. After Jade died, Blaze was offered a college football analyst job in Utah and decided to move. It was kind of like a coaching assistant and that was like a step up in his career you know where he'd actually be on the field with the players. To Jade's family the man responsible for killing their daughter and her unborn baby was living his life while they were waiting for him to be held responsible. How are you doing? Good. Can I ask your name? Blaze. Blaze. Then, after a year of investigating Jade's death, on March 14, 2024, in a store parking lot in Utah...

19:31What's your last name? Taylor. Put your hands behind your back for me, okay? What's wrong? You got a warrant out of Tennessee for homicide. Blaze Taylor was arrested facing murder charges for killing Jade and her unborn child. He was brought back to Nashville and the Taylor family worked to have him released a month later on a $2.5 million bond. Did he have any reason to try to hurt Jade or the unborn child because he did not want to become a father? Absolutely not. I mean, we already knew that she was pregnant. He has a job, so there's no reason. And there's no evidence, says Blaze Taylor's defense attorney. There was absolutely nothing that tied Blaise Taylor to the drugs that caused the death of Ms. Ben, and for the pool,

20:49because pools are cool. I feel the love. Book a Vrbo that's loved by guests. If you know, you Vrbo. For two families who define justice differently, the stakes were high as Blaze Taylor, in June of 2026, went on trial for the murders of Jade Benning and her unborn child. Davidson County Prosecutors Jan Norman, Roger Moore, and Kendall Ponchilia needed to convince the jury that Blaze Taylor intentionally poisoned Jade Benning, and that he thought he could get away with it. But his plan was foiled by that call Jade made to Nigea. We all agree that his plan was to poison her with the liquid cocaine, and then to leave her there. And that phone call totally disrupted what could theoretically have been

21:46the perfect murder. And so Nigea was the key witness for the prosecution, describing to the jury what she says she heard on that call from Jade. She immediately starts saying, what did you do? What did you put in my dream? Then I heard her say, Blaze, you're scaring me. And he was like, you're scaring me. And she was asking him to empty his pockets. And he was like, I don't have anything. Can you repeat the last thing that you heard Jane say? She said that you did this so something could happen to the baby. What do you make of that call? I can't make heads or tails of it. Leticia Quinones-Hollands, one of Blaze Taylor's defense attorneys, has doubts about that call since it was not recorded

22:41and only relies on what Nigea says she heard. Think about your very best friend, and you hear that she is in danger. Do you call 911 to get her help? That was a question she asked Nijea during cross-examination. You could have reported to 911, correct? And if they would have asked me questions about her physical state, I would have not been able to provide those answers. Nigea also testified about that visit to Jade's apartment with friends to undertake their own investigation before police secured the scene. She spoke about taking those precautions, wearing gloves, videotaping the process, and about moving the camera from the bedroom to its usual spot in the kitchen and taking the comforter.

23:31Were you there when that comforter was bagged up? Yes. Did anybody touch it with anything other than gloved hands to put it in that bag? No. For the defense, the fact that the friends moved the camera and took the comforter raised questions about the integrity of the scene and evidence. Why were you so careful about not touching the thing, but you weren't careful enough to preserve the scene? What was the difference? I'm not sure. Nothing usable was recovered from the camera. Because Jade's death involved a drug, prosecutors knew this was something they would have to address. Prior to Jade warning that she was pregnant, did Ms. Binning, did she drink alcohol? Yes. And did she use any other substances?

24:25She smokes marijuana. But the state argued that when Jade learned she was pregnant, her drinking and marijuana use stopped, and that she was not known to use cocaine. Have you ever heard of her using cocaine or even talking about it? No. The defense also questioned Nijaya about this. Would you smoke marijuana together? Yes. Would you drink together? Yes. Did she ask you to do mushrooms with her? Maybe. I don't recall. It felt like they were tainting Jade's character and her image, as well as mine, to have to defend myself and her was like very jarring. Nobody, including myself, wants to victim blame. But at the same time, what we're talking about here is a drug overdose. Whether it was accidental, whether it was

25:27intentional, that's what we were there to determine. Throughout the trial, the defense contrasted Jade's history with drugs to that of Blaze. The only person that had experience and connection with drugs, between the two of them, was Ms. Benny. And it wasn't just her past. Evidence was presented that earlier the same day Jade collapsed, she had a text conversation with someone identified in her phone as Danny Weed Guy, a drug dealer, asking, Hey, my coworker wants to get a half from you. Every single text message to Danny Weed after she found out she was pregnant, there's a corresponding text message every single time that it was not for Jade's use. There was no evidence that the request was for Jade, nor that they ever met that day.

26:23Only the message with Danny Weed responding, bet I got you when I get back. Was Danny Weed called as a witness at all, just to clear any of this up or to testify? No, because Jade did not die from marijuana use. Jade died from acute cocaine toxicity. But for the defense, any interaction between Jade and a drug dealer should have been investigated more thoroughly. He was not considered a witness for the prosecution and he did not want to talk with us, but he was never spoken to by the police. The state argued this was all about liquid cocaine as a murder weapon, nothing else. Dr. Erin Carney, a medical examiner for Davidson County, testified that the levels of cocaine found in Jade's system were rarely seen. Based on the high level of cocaine, I actually signed her death certificate to say ingested cocaine.

27:21And what was the manner of death? It could not be determined. It was much more suspicious that someone gave it to her without her knowledge. But I didn't have enough to get to that, you know, homicide determination. To try to help the jury get to that homicide determination, the prosecution was going to call a witness from Blaze Taylor's past. We were going to ask her to do something that, in our opinion, was a very smart and he just was really charming. Apple Denny met Blaze Taylor at Arkansas State in 2016 when she was a freshman and he was an upperclassman. They dated on and off for a few years. Apple says she eventually saw a different side of Blaze. Calculated and controlling and willing to do whatever it takes to maintain an image.

28:34That Blaze Taylor was the one Apple Denny would testify about as a crucial prosecution witness. She told the jury that Jay Benning was not the first woman Blaze got pregnant. She said that while she was dating Blaze in 2017, he admitted to reconnecting with a former girlfriend when he thought he and Apple were on a break. And there was more. What was it that he came to tell you about? That you got her pregnant. And what was his demeanor like when he came to you to tell you about? That he got her pregnant. And what was his demeanor like when he came to you to tell you about this? Very erratic, he was upset, didn't want to have a baby with her. Blaise, says Apple, was seeking her help. Apple had been in the same situation with him

29:23a few months earlier when she became pregnant with Blaze's baby. What were your feelings when you learned that you were pregnant? I was really scared and confused. I knew I wasn't ready to have a kid. What did you ultimately end up doing? I had an abortion. Apple says that decision was solely her own and that Blaze was supportive, going with her to appointments. But this other woman told Blaze she might want the baby. What did Blaze ask you to do when he came forward and told you that he had gotten another woman pregnant? He was asking if I could get the abortion pills and give them to him so he could give them to her without her knowing. Apple testified about that conversation. So he was looking stuff up to figure out how she,

30:21like if there was something he could do to make her have an abortion, and asked me if I could get the abortion pills and he could make her take them or put it in her drink. Did you do that? Did I get the pill? No. No evidence was presented that Blaze got a pill. Ultimately, the other woman terminated her pregnancy. Apple and Blaze stayed together on and off until 2019 when the relationship ended. She says she hadn't given Blaze much thought until years later when she heard about what happened to Jade Benning. Apple and Jade's mom, Bridget, connected. Apple was then put in touch with authorities. So when you hear the circumstances surrounding Jade Benning's death, what do you think happened to Jade?

31:18I think that he carried out a plan that he had thought about years ago. Her testimony to me came across as a woman spurned. carried out a plan that he had thought about years ago. Her testimony to me came across as a woman spurned. Jim Sanders, one of Blaze Taylor's defense lawyers, questions Apple's motivation to testify. The defense says Apple's own words about her past with Blaze paint a different story. There were actual journals and things of that nature where she talked about what an amazing individual he was, what a positive impact he made on her life. Apple doesn't deny she once viewed Blaze fondly, but says she had no motive to reveal details of her personal life on the stand. I'm telling everyone that I had abortion. And that was probably one of the worst parts

32:15about it, is having to deal with people thinking these things about me and having to revisit all of that. The defense contends Apple's testimony should never have been allowed by the court. That testimony from Apple Denny was more than highly prejudicial, and it was clearly inadmissible. You cannot use character evidence or evidence of a bad act to prove the case. Would it show, though, a certain pattern of behavior? Well, where's the pattern here? We're talking about, according to Ms. Denny, what he said, not what he did. What he said. Apple Denny was one of the last witnesses for the state. The defense's focus turned to the reliability of Jade's lab results and questions about what actually caused her death.

33:13Are you familiar with coca ethylene? Are the metabolites coca ethylene? Yes. The defense presented medical experts who testified about a substance called cocaethylene, formed when cocaine and alcohol are combined. It was found in Jade's lab results. So if cocaethylene is there, that indicates that a person has ingested ethanol and cocaine at the same time. Ethanol is alcohol. The defense argued it only would have been present if Jade was drinking alcohol when she ingested cocaine. And perhaps that combination, not cocaine alone, killed her. The defense made a real big deal about that Jade could have been using alcohol, that Jade mixed these two together. And there was absolutely no proof that Jade mixed these two together, and there was absolutely no proof that Jade had a sip of alcohol

34:07once she found out she was pregnant. The state contends that the level of cocaethylene was so small it was below a reportable unit, and it offered another explanation for its presence, one involving Blaze. He could have very easily have dissolved the cocaine in a small amount of alcohol. But there was another drug known to be deadly found on her comforter, fentanyl. The defense suggested that Jade had to be using fentanyl or taken something laced with fentanyl for it to be there. How is that not considered when we're talking about the causation of death? How could that even be explained, this finding of fentanyl on a comforter, if she never used fentanyl? Because that comforter got put in a bag,

34:59it got put in the back of someone's car, then it gets given to the police. Everyone makes every precaution about not contaminating evidence, but things happen. We also have the medics that were in there. It's a trace amount, which is consistent with it just touching something that it shouldn't have. But according to the defense, there is simply not enough evidence to prove what killed Jade. And it says whatever killed her did not involve Blaze Taylor. He called 911. He followed the ambulance to the hospital. He talked to the police whenever they asked him a question. Not the act of a guilty guy. To the prosecution, those are the acts of someone guilty trying to look innocent. Jane Benning absolutely named Blaise Taylor

36:01as the person who put something in her drink, and her words are direct evidence that he did it and that would be up to the jury to decide jake benning called the one person who knew where she was knew who she was with would know that she was calling scared she made sure that you heard her last words after seven days of testimony in blaze taylor's trial, attorneys presented their closing arguments. For the state, it ended much the way it began, referencing that call Jade Benning made to her friend, Nigea Jackson. I know you put something in my drink. The prosecution dismissed the defense theories that other drugs were involved, saying this was solely about cocaine. Blaze Taylor intentionally put that cocaine in Jade's drink to kill the baby.

37:17We dealt with an official finding of undetermined, the manner of death in this case. The defense argued that the state did not have enough evidence to even classify Jade's death a homicide, let alone point to Blaze as her killer. And as for Jade's final phone call, jurors were reminded those details relied solely on Nigea's recollection. Remember, nobody else heard exactly what was going on on that phone call. Nobody but Nigea. In terms of a motive, the defense insisted there was none. I guarantee you he is not the first human being that in his 20s had an unexpected pregnancy pop up, and he's not happy. And they want you to believe that would give him motive to kill her and the baby. I thought that we were going to be okay.

38:15When you have reached a verdict, you will return to this courtroom. But it's always scary when your life is in the hands of 12 people that don't know you. As the case went to the jury, each family held on to hope. We prepared ourselves to be there for a while. You're sending them pins and needles. The wait would not be long. After about two hours of deliberating, there was a verdict. We, the jury, find the defendant, Blaze Allen Taylor, for count one, guilty of second-degree murder. Blaze Taylor was found guilty of four counts, second-degree murder of Jade Benning, first-degree premeditated murder of an unborn child, and two counts of felony murder. He received two life sentences to be served consecutively.

39:09Hearing that verdict, take me back to that moment for you. Relief, like a weight lifted, that this would never be done to anybody else by him. I heard guilty, and then I don't, I think I was just like everything just kind of like blacked out after that. And that feeling as a parent, you know, that you feel like there's no hope. It's the worst feeling when you can't, when you can't help your son. They didn't prove he was guilty. An innocent man got convicted. Blaze Taylor's defense team and family are working on an appeal. I want to make sure that we as well as the attorneys continue to fight for his innocence because he didn't do this. For Jade's family, the verdict did bring justice. But the void left in their lives by Jade's death and that of Ivy, her unborn child, will never be filled.

40:12They try to celebrate Jade in big and small ways. Their arms have tattoos of butterflies, which Jade loved. And at what would have been Jade's 10-year high school reunion... I feel the love. I definitely feel the love that they had for her. Jade's classmates, including her best friend Nijaya, remembered the special life lost. There's like a hole knowing that she isn't here. Jade's family brought balloons for the class to release as a way to honor their daughter. She touched so many people. You know, I think about her daily. She's always with me. Always wonder just what life would have been like to become a grandmother. The rest of life will be what would have been.